Three years fast forward since I've created a blog entry on how to achieve your target IELTS score, here I am sitting in front of my laptop typing and wow, how I miss writing. Not that I would consider myself a writer in that sense.. Looking back to my previous posts, which I would say not a lot, just mainly focused on cosmetics and also there's this particular post which I've published, unpublished and republished (don't ask me why) on what made me say goodbye to the airline industry, I finally had the courage and the interest to update this blog.
2016, that's the year I started dreaming and made sure that dream turns into reality. I'm not a very active individual, I'm lazy and it normally takes me some time to just "move." But I can also be goal driven and highly motivated. Once I set my mind and heart in it, I won't stop. (Remember the number of times I applied at different airline companies? 16.) Yes, as soft as I seemingly am, I can also have that heart of a lion, my tenacity can be quite dangerous.
So yes, 8 years.. and now living in the Land of the Free. I was able to survive my one year, and as much as I'm tempted to put into detail my day to day struggle since I came here, I'm just thankful that I'm still breathing. I'm grateful for the people who've helped me settle, who've become my friends and second home almost 10,000 miles away from my first. I came with a purpose and still would like to believe that I'm fulfilling it 'til the present day.
Every day is difficult. Some days are just less. Being away from home and the need for financial stability, I would say, are the biggest challenges I've ever faced. I've practiced my independence, and have shed tears at random moments. This is for sure the longest time I've ever been away from my family, I was very sheltered growing up, I've never really relied on myself in decision-making until now. The present circumstances make me stronger, responsible, and self-reliant.
I would like to think of a conversation I had with one of my patients in the unit where I work in. He asked me if I love my job and if I am happy with it. I responded to him "I'm not gonna lie to you. There are days when it's really hard. But, I try." And he replied "Trust me, I know." And it's true, sometimes we just have to try. Sometimes, we just have to go with the flow.
"Flow like water and you can find your way through any rock."
Katrina
