I have been contemplating on this line for quite a few days already and it just seems so applicable to my present love life. Is this even possible? Do I really know what I am saying? Where do we even go from here ‘cause apparently, every question is just followed by another. The thing is, the more you think about, the crazier this whole thing becomes. Or maybe, this isn’t just a thing?
It’s more than that feeling of having butterflies in your stomach. even more than your pounding chest, pulse racing, fast heartbeat and hormones suddenly acting up. It’s something that I’ve never felt for a very long time - about a couple of years. No. Scratch that because it’s definitely better than that. It’s about loving his uniqueness, his efforts, his way of loving me. It’s him being serious when all I could think about before was how to avoid getting into serious relationships. It’s like I’ve been smacked on my face because obviously and ironically, this man knows my worth more than I do. And it’s totally a shame because he wanted that spot though I have already expressed that that wasn’t what I was expecting him to ask from me.
We met unexpectedly and as I believe, the circumstances weren’t right. But time had its way of letting us get to know each other even if it was wrong. He came when I was just leaving everything about my past behind, including a not-so-typical and desirable kind of relationship and a job I assumed I would have for the many years to come. I was just beginning to figure out where I was heading to. But the communication remained intact while I was in that crucial stage in my life. After being several miles away and now that I’ve set new goals in my life, everything is running smoothly. It keeps getting better and better, actually.
Honestly, I am overwhelmed with how things are going right now. It might be soon to tell and everything that’s happening is just too good to be true but I am glad of taking this risk. Everything started with a surprise and surprises didn’t stop until now. I am not wishing this could go on forever like how a fairy tale would normally end. I am just hoping that we could make each day count, not wasting a minute of it.
This man who’s a real gentleman, who remains consistent, who fulfills his promises he made, who calls me at random times just to check up on me, who surprises and travels for hours just to see me, who spends his time with me. This man is a real blessing to me.
It can end up right, can it?
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